I’ve been thinking a lot about risk, love and rejection. After all, there may be a reason that I’m still single: I’m terrified to “put myself out there.” I never really knew what “putting yourself out there” meant, however, recently I’ve decided to define it as: finding someone you like or could like and telling them, or better yet, showing them your true feelings and interest. Simply, I suck at this. Instead, I retreat, appear aloof and pray that he’ll figure it out on his own that I do like them. All this, so I can avoid rejection. With age; however, I realize that the fear of rejection may render you alone with an ageing cat and a TiVo remote. Yes, folks I’m pointing the finger at me. I’m guilty! I’ve never “put myself out there.”
So last Thursday (my vampire date night), I was inspired by the risk that Caroline took to not only tell Matt how she felt, but to show him. Although she struggled to find the words, she found the song, that showed Matt that she cared, that she was still there, and that despite her being a vampire and Matt a mere mortal, she still had feelings beyond wanting to suck the blood out of him.
Now, if I could only sing.